Have you ever wondered why parents punish us for bad grades even when we have fantastic grades in other classes? Let's say you got an "F" in social studies but got "A+'s" in all your other classes. Instead of rewarding you for the other classes, they decide to ignore the fact that you got amazing grades in all but one class & punish you for the one class that you decided to slack off on a little because you were too busy focusing on the other classes in order to get good grades. But something else that makes me wonder is why whenever you brush your teeth with minty toothpaste and then drink a cold & refreshing glass of water it tastes & feels amazing in your mouth! But then you drink orange juice & the moment is just gone forever. Sometimes I feel like the most important people in my life decide to leave without a trace & all the ones that are fake decide to stay & secretly hope you fail in life. Get out of my life if you're not going to be there for me!  Because then, you're just useless. I get so tired in class like I can barely keep my eyes open. But then the minute I take the first step through the front door of my house, I feel so hyper! Like I just drank fifteen large cans of Monster! Monster is 100 times better than Rockstar simply because it was here first. Wait, now I sound bad. I'm judging Rockstar without tasting it! I think I'll go buy a Rockstar. I'm so ashamed :( ok bye!!! :)

Hello everyone! My goodness, it has been a long time since I have done an update on here! I hope everyone has been doing wonderful and remembering how amazing, worthy, and beautiful they are! So much has been going on lately; I can hardly believe we are heading into the second week of June!

This year has been great; full of growth and learning opportunities. I love my current job. I am working at a residential treatment facility for adults who battled substance abuse and have been there since February. I enjoy having the opportunity to talk to them about God and being able to make a difference each day. I have some of the most amazing friends; true friends. Something I haven’t always experienced. I am growing each day in my relationship with God and becoming better at trusting him in all areas of my life and not just some.

This year has been spent going around to different schools and groups and talking to young women and men about eating disorders, self-esteem, and learning to love themselves for WHO they are. I have been enjoying this so much. I will also be moving within the next month and a half to Omaha, Nebraska where I will be working towards finishing my degree in social work. I just took a job at the Children’s Hospital where I will be a psych tech working on the eating disorder unit. This is a place where I was treated. I will be working with several of the amazing people who helped save my life throughout the years.

I have also been growing even more in my relationship with my brother. My brother is ready to begin walking the path with Jesus. He ‘believes’ but he doesn’t KNOW God.  I am so eager and excited for the journey with him. It was such an amazing visit 2 weeks ago when he let me pray for him, with him.

The other big thing I am doing this summer is celebrating 2 years of recovery on July 5^th! It is hard to believe how far I have come within 2 years and that nothing is the same … WHICH is a GREAT thing! I am partnering with the National Eating Disorder’s Association to raise money for scholarships, funding, materials for parents/individuals to learn, etc. Such an amazing cause to give back to! You can check out the main walk page and my personal page/donation page. If you are interested in participating or helping that would be beyond appreciated!

Main Page/Details about the walk: http://neda.nationaleatingdisorders.org/site/TR?fr_id=1740&pg=entry

Personal Testimony/Donation Page: http://neda.nationaleatingdisorders.org/site/TR/NEDAWalk/General?px=1005516&pg=personal&fr_id=1740

Hey guys! First off thanks for reading this because I joined loveyourflawz.com today so this is actually my first blog post. So thank you! Well not very long ago (last week actually) I started summer school. I live in Puerto Rico and barely know any Spanish so school was very difficult for me. Especially math. Even though math is mostly numbers it was still hard because my teacher would sometimes have us write notes that she would give out verbally and it's not really my strongest subject. It's actually my worst. I couldn't follow along so I had to have my friend Yaysha give me her notes so I can transfer them into my notebook. The teacher I always believed to be a racist. I would ask her for help whenever I didn't understand something. But she wouldn't give it to me or try to explain. She would just say "you should've been paying attention," or "too bad, ask someone else for help." Even though I tried so hard in her class she wouldn't give me help. So I gave up. My friend Yaysha wanted to help me instead so I let her. Because we would talk so much, the teacher moved Yaysha across the classroom. We talked because Yaysha was translating everything in English for me to understand it. So that was it. I had no help. I tried talking to my teacher about it and I ended up getting detention. I was the only one in my class who wasn't born & raised in Puerto Rico. Everyone else besides me that needed help, the teacher would sit there all happy & explain to them calmly except for me. I thought she was racist. So I ended up failing because I didn't get the help I needed. The school year was really tough for me and it's not over up June 29, 2012. Sucks for me. 

It is hard to believe it's been 4 months since I've last visited loveyourflawz. However, I like the distance. Now I have something to truly write about. An actual event will be taking place in my life. For about a year I've been planning and preparing for England and now exactly to the date I have a week to go. My stomach is in knots, my mind races with a million thoughts and once in a while my hands begin to shake. Yes, I am nervous and anxious about my trip and some fear is mixed in too. I am not afraid of what is waiting for me there, wonderful friends, but more less it is the unknown that frightens me. This will be my first trip anyway alone and since this is my first journey outside the States I'm even that much more nervous about it all. It will be worth feeling all of this once my feet touch down on English soil. I am looking forward to sharing of my travels once I return. Take care all.

Lindsey